Guilty.
We the jury find the defendant, Ryne Hambright, guilty of lame blog entitlement and second degree lyric burgulary.
Its weird. I know.
But its been a weird weekend. I hope I'm spelling weird right.
This weekend I've just been questioning myself, endlessly. About where I want to be in the next few years and what I want to have accomplished other than seeing all shows humanly possible. Therein leads the question of what school I should transfer to. I've been looking at this school in Nashville, Belmont University because they offer music business as a major. But its MASSIVE expensive and a long way away to know noone. Semi-frightening. I think it would be easier if I knew someone there. But I guess there are just somethings I can't know right now.
I don't know why I'm so focused on the future anyway. My present has become a struggle in itself. School is pretty difficult this semester and money is always an issue but whatever. I think the things I'm struggling with most are just internal, quarrels in the back of my mind. I never thought I would say this, but lately I've identified with Britney Spears more than I had ever hoped. Some days I wake up, and I'm a positive peter and am just so optimistic it makes my other half want to vomit. And then other days, I wake up hating me and everything around. Its difficult to explain but bipolar would be the best way to put it. The difference between ol' Britney and I, is I believe I can control it. But recently here I havent cared enough to try to save myself. And I'm certainly not being as strong in my faith as I want. I hate when I become so easily blinded by the little misfortunes of this world. Retrospect can be the worst torture.
If you've read to here, maybe should tell me why. Because I have no fathamable reason as to why you would. But yea, I just hope that I can find what is I'm looking for and start to regain that likeability factor I used to find in myself. Its slowly dying away. But the great thing is I know I can always go back. And run back to the arms that always catch the fall.
Later, dudes.
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I looked at that school too, but yea, its really expensive.
Cheer up, I dont like seeing you so down. I'll be prayin for you
dude.. I so laughed at how you compared yourself to BS. really.. anyhow I liked your title.. it was rkish awesomeness.. I happened yo use rkish awesomeness to title my latest/boring/pointless research paper.
you are not alone..I've been thinking about my future prolly way more than you. Ask megg...haha And yes, the present is very complicated so im trying to focus on that for now.. its stressing me out but like I told megg... Good thing we got our God working behind the scenes on our behalf! (yeah I stole that from Joel Osteen);]
Ryne! Don't be so down on yourself. We don't need two people at work who are, I've been for the past few weeks. Look at it like this, I'm here to talk if you want. And more importantly, we have God on our side. Well, I guess I should get back to school work, but I'm sure I'll see you at work!
I like you even if you don't. :)
I'm like a week or two late, but that's better than never I suppose..
Cheer up buckaroo.. haha everyone has these 'Britney Spears moments' in their life at one time or another. Except most people don't get into drugs when it happens, or shave of the hair on their pretty little heads.. they might pull some hair out of their skull when things get really bad, but that just leads to a possible tiny bald patch, which is nothing compared to a naked head.. :x
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